Paralegal.
That’s what I’m going to do. I’m taking 4 classes this semester, maybe 5 if I can get signed into one. I’m wicked excited about this one.
Oh, yea, and I survived New Years, apparently. Sorry for the meltdown.
I hate this holiday December 31, 2008
mental breakdown
mental breakdown
mental breakdown
Oh how I hate this holiday
Every freaking year
I do NOT want to go out tomorrow night. And I most certainly don’t want to go out with the Romanian tomorrow night. He’s just fine. Honestly, I’ve barely seen him since my last post. And when I have he’s been very pleasant. However, today I got about ten missed calls and a voicemail. I can’t deal with this. I officially hate being set up.
That’s just adding to my regular yearly mental breakdown that begins the day before New Year’s Eve. Last year it lasted about two weeks. However the fact that I was reading New Moon for the first time at the time defintely added to that particular depression.
I can’t handle this. I have to work tomorrow and I want to call out soooo badly. I can’t. I know I can’t, but I want to. I just know Joe is going to come in (pray tell, why do you come into work almost everyday during your vacation?) and bring the Romanian and he’ll annoy me at work and Joe will be like “he’s very sensitive, why were you avoiding his calls, are you going to take him to your party and First Night tonight?” And I might flip out. I honestly don’t know if I can take it. All the meddling and all the clinging. I just can’t deal.
Seriously, I want a boyfriend. I want somebody to kiss at midnight. Honestly, I do. But I want it to be someone I pick out. I want to be happy.
End of Year Meme December 23, 2008
Snagged as usual from Sassenach:
What did you do in 2008 that you’d never done before? Ummm… I planned a short, but very spontaneous trip to Georgia and South Carolina and funded it all by myself. Usually my trips are planned well in advance and paid for by the parents or gps. Um, I also cooked last week. I can bake, but I’m terrified of cooking meat and giving people food poisoning so I’ve never really cooked.
Did you keep your new years’ resolutions and will you make more for next year? I had a billion resolutions last year (well 10 actually). Some were more successful than others, but in the end I’m probably just the same as last year. This year the only resolution I am making is to save my money.
Did anyone close to you give birth? Um, my boss’s wife and a co-worker.
Did anyone close to you die? Yes, although I hadn’t seen her in about 12 years.
What countries did you visit? Only my own.
What would you like to have in 2009 that you lacked in 2008? A boyfriend. Maybe. A better job. Some money would be nice too.
What date from 2008 will remain etched upon your memory, and why? Hmmm… good question. November 21 (Twilight), Election Day, a particularly fun night in March, the day I got into Clemson
What was your biggest achievement of the year? Getting into Clemson, even if I didn’t end up going there. It’s a great school and I really didn’t think I would get in.
What was your biggest failure? Not doing better in my classes.
Did you suffer illness or injury? Root canal just last week. A nasty bout of the flu a couple of weeks ago. I’m sure I’ve had bad colds and stuff before too. I’m always sick.
What was the best thing you bought? No idea. OH! I GOT IT! My tattoo!
Whose behavior merited celebration? My mom’s. It’s been an awful year and she’s kept this family together pretty damn well despite all the stress.
Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed? Politics bullshit I guess.
Where did most of your money go? Bills: school loans and car stuff.
What did you get really, really, really excited about? Twilight. Going back to school (although that fizzled quite a bit)
What song will always remind you of 2008? anything from the Twilight soundtrack, cause I am that lame
Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder? not gonna lie, I always get sad this time of year, so just as sad, if not a little sadder
ii. thinner or fatter? a teensy bit less
iii. richer or poorer? much poorer
What do you wish you’d done more of? gone to class, read, knit
What do you wish you’d done less of? stress, work
How will you be spending Christmas? With the fam
Did you fall in love? Pffft.
What was your favourite TV program? I got wicked into Doctor Who this year.
Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year? I don’t think so, although it was a bad day at work so I could be mean and say my head teller, but I don’t really hate her.
What was the best book you read? Hmm, I’ve read a lot this year: Twilight, His Dark Materials, a couple of Austen novels I hadn’t read before. Best would have to be Persuasion by Jane Austen
What was your greatest musical discovery? Ok, most of them are from the Twilight soundtrack or my Plurk penpal Jassy: Muse, The Lucksmiths, Los Campesinos, Stealing Jane, A Fine Frenzy, Iron & Wine
What did you want and get? To get into Clemson
What did you want and not get? To go to Clemson
What was your favorite film of this year? Do I really need to say it?! Twilight, obviously. Although, there were plenty of good ones out this year: Dark Knight, Iron Man, Mamma Mia, etc
What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you? I turned 22 and I went out with Ashley and Christine to Acapulco’s for margaritas and beer!
What one thing would have made your year immeasurably satisfying? For my dad to have found a job and we didn’t have to worry about how the mortgage would get paid this month. A boyfriend would have helped a bit too.
How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2008? running with Sassenach’s “comfortable”
What kept you sane? knitting and reading mystery novels or vampire books or vampire mysteries
Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most? hehe… RPattz, no question. David Tennant too.
What political issue stirred you the most? Obama winning the election
Who did you miss? Rachel from RWU who I only got to see a couple of times this year. My family in Georgia and Florida. And Ashley.
Who was the best new person you met? At the moment, my brother’s girlfriend. I don’t know if she’s the best of the whole year, but she’s pretty cool.
Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2008: errr… don’t take Psych classes if you’re in a particularly low mood.
Quote a song lyric that sums up your year: How about I come back to this one, eh?
Meta Post of Knitting December 18, 2008
Well, I promised a knitting update and here it is:
My Rosalie hat:
Based on a hat that Rosalie wore during one of the cafeteria scenes:
I have shared it on Ravelry and people are actually interested in a pattern!!! It will need a bit of reworking: more lacy and more slouchy. But still, the idea of designing a pattern and sharing it with others is something I never thought I’d be doing when I began knitting 4 years ago.
These are my goth-y gauntlets:
The pattern is Twisted Stitches’ Armwarmers. And I wear them very often. I get a lot of compliments on them as well.
Um, I just finished a pair of Maine Morning Mitts, but I don’t have a picture yet. They are for my mom’s friend for Christmas. And I really enjoyed the pattern so I decided to use the rest of the yarn that I had from my cousins’ hats last year to make matching Mitts, but I just finished one and doubt I’ll have enough left for a second one.
The other MAJOR Christmas present. The only one I had really intended on making is my mom’s Shoalwater Shawl. Here is a WIP Pic:
Oh, and the Winter Twilight Mitts WIP pic: (yea I’ve been a bit obsessed with fingerless mitts lately)
I overdyed the secondary yarn (the not-blue one) from a green and orange colorway with grape Kool-Aide, but instead of a dark purple I got more of a purpley, greeny, orangy, color.
Ok, well I oughtta get back to my knitting and napping. I have the newest version of Sense and Sensibility in the DVD player and some meds to take.
quickie December 17, 2008
So, I felt like writing and saying that I have been uber-busy. For somebody who said they weren’t going to do any holiday knitting, I’ve got a lot of holiday knitting to get done and some things I have finished. My classes are almost over. I have one more final on Friday. I’m going through a particularly low valley mood-wise. The stress of school and holidays and teeth (emergency root canal anybody?) has seriously gotten to me.
I will hopefully post again tomorrow with pictures and lists and stories and stuff. I have a day off that will include a smidge of sleeping in and another trip to the dentist’s office, then home for some serious napping.
show and tell October 8, 2008
Here’s some more Show And Tell.
Yesterday in my Adolescent Psych class we had the rather silly assignment of drawing our own personal Coat of Arms. It was pretty fun though and I did some good sketching (the bottom) that I wanted to share. Knitters and book lovers unite! Granted I misquoted Tolkien, but hey, I didn’t have it on me. Still, enjoy:
My Next Tattoo September 30, 2008
So, I have a two ideas for my next tattoos. The first, being the one I though of first, is Harry Potter themed and fairly simple. “Expecto Patronum” on my wrist and maybe some starbursts around it. The second is much more complicated and a more recent idea, but probably the one I want the most. It is complicated because I am designing it myself and want it to be perfect. It will be a Tree of Life at the base of my neck. Originally inspired by the Jen Delyth Tree of Life, I have been working on my own.
Most are symmetrical, cabled and celtic in design, such as these rough sketches:
However, today I drew this and had to share:
Not going to lie, I would love this tattooed over my entire back. But, the pragmatist in me says I probably shouldn’t get something quite so extravagant.
Does anybody know anything about copywriting art such as my sketches and possibly poems? I have been drawing a lot lately and writing some decent stuff for my Creative Writing class that I would like to share, but I don’t really want my stuff stolen.
Bleh, I used “such as” twice and kind of feel like the girl from South Carolina in the Miss Teen USA pageant. Only, I know what I’m talking about and use the phrase correctly.
story of my life September 5, 2008
I’m a little slow to jump on the webcomic bandwagon. I got into xkcd.com a couple of months ago, but only started reading Questionable Content tonight. As I started from the beginning, this one caught my eye:
Hitchcockian? FH @ RWU? WTF? April 9, 2008
I wanted to ramble about how a cameo can’t be Hitchcockian if it is a speaking part. With the exception of The Wrong Man, where Alfred Hitchcock narrates the film’s prologue, he doesn’t say anything in any of his cameos. So, if Stephenie Meyer’s cameo has a line, how can it be considered Hitchcockian? Which is (obviously) how I wanted it to be. I tell ya, I can barely keep up with all of the Twilight interviews and articles, but I did read this one. It kind of annoyed me. They all have been lately. It is all just too much information, there is going to be no surprise, but I can’t stop reading them… Obsession is difficult. I will say that I’m wicked excited that SM let Rob read Midnight Sun, the novel that explains Twilight in Edward’s POV. Rob reading that will do wonders for his development of the character.
Geez… Isn’t it bad enough that I spend all of my free time on the Twilight group message boards on Ravelry? Actually it’s probably better otherwise I would be having one-way book discussions all the time in this blog about it. At least over there we get into some deep stuff. It started with whose side you’re on, progressed into what will Bella’s power be and now we’re discussing SM’s use of gender roles. It’s pretty amazing.
Now for some non-Twilight related venting. Tomorrow night I’m going down to RWU for a Forest Henderson concert. I’m more than a little stressed… I’m totally freaking out!! Now, one may ask “Why is this girl freaking out over a concert?” I’ll tell you why. These are my two very different worlds, neither of which I belong to anymore, meshing together and getting me confused. Forest Henderson is a bunch of guys I went to high school with. They were the garage band of my school. They always played at the dances and won the Battle of the Bands competition. The frontman was also my high school boyfriend. We’re still friends obviously, but we have an interesting relationship. I barely see him or the other guys anymore. The other day I got an email from Billy, the ex, telling me about the show at RWU and asking me to come. Now, Roger Williams University, RWU, is where I did my first two years of college. It’s a completely different group of friends. A completely different type of people. When I left, I fell off the face of the earth to all my classmates (seniors this year). I talk to two people who still go there. Two. I see them once a month, if I’m lucky.
Now, see, when I see the guys in FH its usually at one of their concerts cause they get a lot of gigs around Boston. I’m usually surrounded by other high school friends. All of us who stayed local make an effort to meet up at their shows. I’m also usually drinking, which helps with my anti-social tendencies. Tomorrow night, there will be no high school friends. Just Rachel. And possible other former-college-former-friends. I have no idea. Thank God Rachel is coming with me otherwise I never would have gone, but still. Rachel is very different from my high school friends. We usually do quiet things like dinner or a movie or shopping. The show is on campus, so there won’t be any drinking, so I’ll be very nervous.
I have to stop. I’m making myself even more nervous by overthinking everything. No worries, I’ll report on all the weirdness on Friday.
